Well, i just got back from the Passion Conference 2010. It was truly an amazing experience. I pray that God will continue to work in my life as He always is and that this passionate fire does not go out.
I am struggling tonight, just in the aspect that it is hard going back into the real world. It felt so encouraging to be surrounded by real love and Christ-like people, and then you come back home, and it hits you with a ton of bricks. I didnt realize it would be this hard. Im still struggling in a few things in my life, but my heart feels so much different. I was awakened to Gods glory this weekend and how much He is completely centered in everything. It was really hard for me to understand, but i am so thankful that i now am grasping it. Everything was created for God and in Him. That means my life is not about....myself........but about God and bringing glory to His name. That means that everything I DO, must and will reflect Christ in me, because He is in me, and He is changing me into the image of His son. I believe i found one of mystery's of God this weekend that many will never understand. I want to be a light in the word, inspite of anguish and suffering like Paul went through, i want that. i want to be put in the pit. Jesus was so giving and loving because He is God. Though He was part human, He was and is also God. Paul obviously struggled a lot more because he was full human. And that is where we are all now today. In Pauls shoes, battling the flesh, but conquering sin through Jesus. He lived a life of selflessness and He would even trade his soul for others to go to heaven........that is so...selfless. i could never do that. ever. ever. ever. I do NOT EVER want to be separated from Jesus my King.
God did a lot in my life, and now that i am awakened to a new life, i am ready to share His love to everyone. My goal is to have these words stuck in my soul, to be these things, so that when i die, i will have fulfilled it.
Loving, Selfless, giving, forgiving, confident in Christ, joyful, bold, pure, and a woman with integrity.
