beachy

well, im going to the beach tomorrow, FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ahh, ive been waiting for this for a long time and im super excited and just relaxing and getting tan! more update later i guess. im tired as a BEAST!

A call to anguish

Well, tonights service was pretty much amazing. God broke me so much and convicted me some hard core stuff. Pastor Terry talked about how we need to re kindle the flames in our lives by feeding the Holy Spirit. that was awesome alone just because i have been studying about all of this for the past month. but what really hit me was the video called "A call to anguish" by david wilkinson. i was literally brought to tears after hearing what this man had to say. i cant really put it into words, but God definately brought His presence there during prayer and there was a spirit of awareness and brokeness. I was definately broken. even as i lead worship i was overwhelmed. please watch the video, you wont regret it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGMG_PVaJoI


Other than that,
i was presented with an opportunity today. i cant say any details about it right now, but it is something VERY exciting that i have been wanting to for a long time. i dont know if God wants me to do it so i am definately going to be praying about it alot. it make require a hard decision to make that could change my life, forever. not to be too dramatic of course. but i feel this may have been an immediate answer prayer. but like i said, i dont know. ill fill in the details as soon as im able.

God bless,
Rachel

Hiccups

This made me smile this morning when i found it on my desk. haha, those stupid hiccups......

He has broken through.

I am definately amazed on how much God is speaking to me in my life. It is incredible how much, over and over again, He keeps confirming the same message. I am very grateful. I hope i dont sound selfish, because i dont want that. But i am praying that God will continue to change me into the woman He has called me to be, that i fear the Lord, just at Proverbs 31:30 says.
Right now, i am dealing with impatience in a certain area of my life. I want patience SOOOO bad, but its not coming as quickly as i want it. It is definately a process. haha, i guess you could say im impatient about getting patience. I want to walk in the fullness of God and do what He desires, not me. I guess thats the hard part sometimes because i am human. But all in all, i know He is working and speaking to me in many ways. I am thankful for the fire i am being brought through and i pray that God would continue to refine me..even if it hurts. Because, for the first time, i can finally see God in such way that i have never seen Him before. In all brokenness, God has been carrying me through everything. I am thankful for His strength and mercy. I am definately not worthy of anything that He has given, but wow.

I cant wait to see what the future holds..speaking ministry wise. I know He has called me to full time ministry, and i feel everyday that He is preparing me for that. I know once i get out of this season, that i will fully understand and see why everything happened the way that it did.

Be encourage that God has a plan and that even when you feel you are in the darkness, by His power we can continue to move forward.

Love this verse:
1 chronicles 14:11

Open the floors of heaven

A few days ago, Katelyn, Tiffany, and I hung out one night and just had a nice girls sleepover. It was a lot of fun. but the main reason i enjoyed it so much is because i got to experience something i have never experience before in my life! As we layed in katelyns driveway, gazing at the beautiful stars up ahead, i just kept thinking, wow, God is so awesome. we kept hoping and hoping to see a shooting star, because they are just that awesome! well unfortunately, we didnt see a shooting star, but we saw something much greater! me and katelyn got to witness a SUPER NOVA!!! it was sooo awesome. i remember seeing this bright light in the sky and it got brighter and brighter, and then it just disapeared. it was a star exploding and we got to see its life end!! how stinkin NEAT! as soon as i saw it i got huge chills and had tears in my eyes from the excitment. it was definately one of the moments i will never forget. i am so happy that God allowed us to see a glimpse of His master artwork. So many times we forget who awesome God really is...but im glad God is always patient with us, especially me!

Running to You

So...

Pretty much since 2pm today, i began writing another song! I was at work, and what a privelege it is to just be able to walk on stage and just mess around on the piano and just worship God..when you have finished all your work of course. ;). But yeah, so i just started messing around the piano, (i cannot play really, if you were wondering). And sometimes, i just make up my own little songs with my best ability lol. But anyways, i found some really cool chords that went together and words just started coming to me. So i finished about half then went home. Took and a break, but then was COMPELLED to finish it!! So yeah, its about 9:07pm now and i think im almost done? Im really excited about this song! Everytime i sing it, my spirit and my soul gets so encouraged and i feel His presence everywhere! it is so amazing! Basically the song is about us running towards God, throwing everything aside. I am laying everything down at His feet and just going for it. I love it. In another part of the song, i am planning on adding this sort of 'parallel' or inversion with God saying the same thing to us. As I am running towards, He is also running towards us..Sort of like the Prodigal son.

My heart and spirit is just so full of joy right now, i feel like i just got out of the best church service ever!! haha.

But other than that idk what to say. Except im still going through a tough time with diff. things in my life, but i know God is for me. And if He is for me, who can stand against me?! NO ONE!

I just shouldnt worry about all the little things in my life so much, He has everything under control. I am understanding that more and more everyday. I mean if God, as awesome as He is, can create the universe, how much could and will He do for us? It is so awesome to imagine a magnificent God wanting to be with ME! Like seriously......it is mind blowing.... maybe it could help it you just remember all those trillions of stars you see in pictures or even in your backyard...and know that Creator desires more than anything to spend paradise walking with us and talking with us.