Beautiful Conference and everything else

Had a great time at the Beautiful conference with my favorite worship leader Kari Jobe and speaker Angela Thomas. It was truly an encouragement to hear them both. I got a lot out of the conference, but i left thinking, yup, leading worship is truly what my heart desires to do. I want to lead people in the presence of God for the rest of my life and pour out my soul and heart to those who need Him. I pray that Gods will would be done in my life. I keep thinking today, "Gods will is better than my will". Is it true. He knows better than i know, so i need to trust Him. even if that means me doing something that i dont necessarily want to do right now. Like going to school at selu, lol. sometimes i do, but i was asked the question a few days ago, "If you were completely submitted to Gods will right now, what do you think He would ask you to do'?
I didnt know what to say at first, but now that i think about it more, my answer would be bible school. I would love to have a ministeral degree under my belt but i dont know if thats what God wants, He really hasnt opened a door for me in that area yet.

i did start school last wednesday. wow, is really all i can say. I am taking a lot of classes. 9 to be exact. It is my sophomore year and i am already freaking out, but wouldnt you?
my major is now gen. studies with a concentration in music..so im taking a lot of hard classes, including theory.

Honestly, i am never been more afraid so soon in my life. So like me, huh? it was my third day and im already thinking i cant do this. Such non sense i know! but im already lost in my class, and they say it is just going to get worse. I really dont want to be negative, i want to have faith in believe in God in this situation. So i am going to work as hard as i can for as long as i can.

I know that God is my lamp, and the thing about a lamp is, it doesnt light your whole path, just a little bit at a time to take each step. thats how God works in my life. i only get to see a little at a time.

I look back 2 years from now and never would have thought i would be here. But i know His will is greater than mine, He knows me inside and out, and dreamed me up before i was even created. He knows what is perfect for me. i am so thankful for a God who dreams for me. He is so beautiful. Thank you Lord!

I will lay down my fears, my dreams, and everything else to the One who died and gave His all for me. He is the only One who is worthy, yes He is worthy.

Paint Day!

i had a wonderful day with Renee, Aimie, and my new friend Nina painting! It was my first time to paint on a canvas so i was pretty nervous about it...but i think it turned good! i am VERY proud of it...lol. I think i am going to do it more often! I call it "Cherry Blossom"

I also went out to eat with some good friends, Kelsey and Rachel M. and ate greek and lebanese at Cafe Phonecias. it was excellente! Afterwards, we watched one of my favorite movies, pride and prejudice! it is such a sweet movie and it gets me everytime! i am looking forward to the worship team get together tomorrow night! its going to be an awesome jam session!

"love is waiting"

So..ive been listening to Brooker Frasers Albertine cd lady and im really diggin it. i really like this song a lot because to me it about just waiting on God and HIS perfect timing for the right person. i dont have to fret or be afraid, but just wait and be patient before the Lord. When people pass by who are in love i know that all that matters right now is that i am in love...with my Abba Father. I dont think about this all of time, i just thought was a really cool song. Brooke Fraser is such an awesome song writer!!!
Proverbs 31:30 peeps! be encouraged God is always faithful and good.


in the autumn on the ground, between the traffic and the traffic and the ordinary sounds
I am thinking signs and seasons while a north wind blows through
i was watch as lovers pass me by
walking stories-whos and hows and whys
Musing lazily on love
Pondering you
I'll give it time, give it space and be still for a spell
when its time to walk that way we wanna walk it well


ill be waiting for you baby
ill be holding back the darkest night
love is waiting till we're ready, til its right
Love is waiting

its my caution not the cold
theres no hand id rather hold
the climate changes, im singing for the strangers about you
dont keep time, slow the pace
Honey hold on if you can

Wedding-ness!

I love these girls. =)

Jennifers and Kirby's wedding was last night! it was absolutely extravagant on so many levels. It was so holy and pure and annoited. I dream that my wedding will be like that, that Gods presence would be so strong when i get married to the right one! But anyways, everything was just very pretty. And jennifer was so beautiful. i took a few pictures! The gym was also done very well. There were soo many people. Atleast 500 people, maybe even more. My whole sanctuary filled up.

Church this morning was also amazing. Gods presence was SO strong. I asked God to give me a new experience with Him this morning and He sure did! i have never felt Him like i did this morning. I was leading worship and i could barely sing because how awestruck i was with Him. In life i believe there are special moments that we never forget. today was one of them. I pray i get will more of those awestruck moments with Him.

The Doctorians came to the service because of Jens wedding. Can i just say there are an amazing family, all of them, including the workmans. I can just see God all over them. That is another reason why i thought the wedding was so special.

Luther preached a good message and i got the opportunity for him to pray for me. As soon as i saw him he said he saw Jesus in me. that was really encouraging me. He prayed for me and told me that because i had faith to believe what i wanted, that i would get it. That God was going to use me for many people and to change their lives. I am very thankful for that encouragement. God is so good to those who seek His face.

Fun day! Peeing Cars...

Today was a fun and eventful day!
I woke up at 10:30 am ish and got ready to go each lunch with my buddy Becca. We ended up getting sushi at Geishas...and wow..sushi never gets old for me!! i am like in LOVE with it. Becca is pretty much the craziest sushi eater person i have ever met besides my brother. She is all up in that raw stuff and the pink soapy tasting junk LOL. i decided to be adventures and try [raw] sushi, it was called the 'dynamite'...NOPE. didnt like it...definately spit that number out in my napkin. OH well..i guess the waiters found a nice little surprise when they cleaned up LOL.
Im pretty excited though, i think we might take a road trip to houston, tx to go see BROOKE FRASER in concert in november! im so excited! hopefully my schedule will allow it! Im bones are THRIVING for some good live music.

So after lunch, i headed straight for one of my FAVORITE places on the planet at the moment...yup, Charming Charlies. Best jewlrey/accessory store..ever evented. Wow, i sound really girly right now...i guess there is a reason for that! well, it was kinda ridiculous cause i went all the way over there just to get a pair of earrings. Jen is getting murrrried tomorrow so i wanted to find the right outfit and accessories for it! i cant wait to wear my dress. but more that, i cant wait to see my Jen get married!!!! I am so happy for her and she is definately blessed with someone who truely loves her! The wedding is going to be beautiful! ill post pics soon!

After charming Charlies, went home for a little while, then i went to the hub at hpc. it was a great night, really good worship. got really intimate with the Lord. They sang this song, "What Joy (psalm 146) by generation church. i am definately going to be doing that song on a future wednesday night service. maybe nic will like it and we can do it sunday!

after church, me and kelsey rented a movie and watched When in Rome. it was the cheesiest movie ive ever seen...the acting was kinda bad. BUT, all in all, it was a cute movie. very cheesy, but cute.

i think that pretty much sums up my day.

The quote of the night is
"Oh my gosh, i think my car just peed again!"...hehe.

Surf's Up dude.

helloooooooo!

good to be back. I am currently chillin in front of the tv doing nothing! i am still in vacation mode.

i need to get out of it though, but i love it. anyways. i just got home from the college beach trip today. i had a lot of fun and i got a little burnt/tan. it was good to just chill out out on our [exclusive] beach and listen to the waves. i wish i could go back. :(. ive realized a lot of things about my life, both good and bad. i am going to work to change them. i really dont have too much to say tonight....i guess im just tired. i took some pretty cool pictures!