We the grain

Well, as of now i am studying for psychology and english midterms. I figure the only way to stay sane is to drink coffee and blog. So here we go-
I went to the selu bcm this past thursday night, and God really challenged me. He was talking about because of Christs death and His glorfication, we are glorified and resurrected through Him. When John or some one told Jesus that He would never taste death, Jesus rebuked him. Because without Christs death, we would all be sent to hell. Yes i already knew that, but i was reminded of its great importance. But that wasnt even what hit me.

John 12:23-25
But Jesus answered them, saying, "The hour has come that the Son of Man should be glorified.
"Most assuredly i say, unless a grain of wheat falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone, but if it dies, it produces much grain.
He who loves his life will lose it, and he hates his life in this world will keep it for eternal life".


we must die to ourselves, to our dreams, ambitions, and life goals. that means everything, even wanting to be a worship leader and traveling around the world. We have to surrender and realize that if we look at what we want, we will never experience the fullness of what God wants, and HIS WANT is a BILLION times better. Us humans, including myself can be so small minded, but we bear much fruit if we die first. Because literally, a piece of grain falls to the ground, dies, and turned upside down, then begins to grow, and eventually brings forth fruit. We are the grain, and we must die, so that we can truly live.

two things

Few things on my mind tonight:

One, that God is so amazing. I have experience Him on such an incredible and intimate level this week during worship. Just the fact of understanding that Gods holiness is inside of me is overwhelming. That because of Him, i am sanctified and redeemed. Heaven lives inside of me. It really just shook everything inside of me this week, shook it to the core. And just that He loves me, above all. So high of a God would be trampled and die for ME?! insane! and it truly does break my heart and i am so thankful beyonnd words.

two: that i am extremely exhausted. When i get really tired, i want to cry, and i have been wanting to cry all week. I guess school and my responsibilities are taking a toll on me, but i am thankful that we got 2 days off. It is also hard to keep it all together sometimes and give give give. I know i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I know He is my rest. if you have nothing else to do, just say a quick prayer for me for strength and energy!

other than that, life is great. i cant complain. God blesses me endlessly. i pray for new things, new experiences, and new friendships. i love Him and he is really starting to break me for what breaks His, and ill tell you, sometimes it isnt easy.

In Christ and worship,
Rachel

comittment

Well..
This is weekend was great! I got to spend time with my sister Sarah! We spent the beautiful day getting sushi at Tiger Sushi and then going to the new outlet of platos closet! i got me a nice Ralph Lauren shirt that i cant WAIT to wear! I loved it cause we just got to be with each other and hang! Time can get in way so much and i hate it!



It was really cool to just worship the Lord during practice this past sunday morning. I really felt the presence of God and i love how He moves through me. He is such a faithful and powerful God.